Today is a good day to reflect on the important things in life and to renew my vow to be forever grateful. Since it has been two years since I’ve posted, I start to feel anxious about remembering everything that has happened in the past two years. So in order to move forward and be zen about the present, I will embrace the day, move forward in the present keep the past embedded to keep me strong and honest.
I am going to ignore the rhetoric of ‘bringing back’ in order to be happy, but to move forward from this point and consider only the good, accepting the normal, embracing the situation, and making life ‘great’ without second guessing the progress that I and others have made. Believing love is out there in the world. There is no ‘again’, there is just ‘now’.
I still remain closely knit to the transplant community, rejoicing in the advances in medicine that continue to bring second chances to so many deserving humans. Transplant patients who share in the fight for life are soldiers and when one falls we all grieve. There is a bond that is never broken.
Check out this current story if you need to be reaffirmed that there is good in the world.
Thank you family, friends and donor.
Today is Earth Day. It is also a lovely Spring day in Toronto. The rain is not mopey, but a nice gentle cleanse. I put together this video clip in honour of organ donation; the heroes who register, the heroes who gave, and the heroes who wait.
“We must be willing to get rid of the life we planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us”. – Joseph Campbell
I start my first year post transplant with trust, knowledge and understanding. As I move forward, I have the trust that any tweaks, adjustments, or sidelines are all part of this new life. I have the knowledge and understanding of knowing what to expect from my body and that I have a second chance at a wonderful life, and I am grateful for this gift.
To sum up all the thanks and gratitude I have for my donor, the donor family, my immediate family, my support team and the organ donation community, I want to share in video & pictures a bit of the transformation that I have gone through, and share all the strength, kindness and compassion that I received from everyone. With the power of all those smiles, one could not have a stronger dose of encouragement. You my friends have defined empathy and it is Good!
The courage of the people who have gone on the same journey as I, or who continue to journey and wait for their gift of life is explored in many of the photographs that are contributed by Susan John Reid, who is a stronger than life individual, showing compassion not only for her husband Jack, but all lung buddies!
Thank you to all who shared ‘selfies’ sporting the commemorative t-shirt and boosting awareness for organ donation!
“Research shows that people who are physically healthy, have strong social and communal ties, and have meaningful goals tend to be happier and live longer”- what a great idea!
PS The video is roughly 10 minutes. You’ll need to push the Vimeo button to watch.
I started this post back in August after my 6 month assessment. I failed to complete the publish and now almost 3 more months have past and I have to re-call everything that has transpired over this time period. It is a good but challenging exercise to re-count and share … honing those cognitive skills ..
6 months post transplant has brought fewer trips to hospital for blood work and pulmonary function tests. Now I test just once a month rather than every 2 weeks until I hit my 1 year anniversary.
I am cleared of the two infections I had during the summer, and I continue to add activities to my physical routine outside of the day-to-day errands, household work and dog care.
Clinic assessment days bring together ‘lung buds’ that were in pre-transplant and surgery roughly same time as myself. This time I was strong and healthy enough to join a group of them (along with some of the most loving and strong-willed support folks)…. for tall tales and friendly banter. Sharing stories and comparing recovery notes.
My new favourite anonymous quote:
“The soul needs gratitude, love, connection, community, reverence for life and an outlet to express itself creatively. When those needs are met, happiness follows.” Below are a group of some of the happiest people on Earth!!!!
Stairs, Hills and crawl spaces! All fears and nightmares in the past; now there are more stairs, steeper hills and longer walking distances outside of the treadmill! After I was cleared in clinic, we flew to Newfoundland for a wedding….
Took another road trip back to Minnesota with Bro-in-Law, Kurt and the Dogs. Time to start planning fall clean up of the lake house, time to spend with Dad and his bountiful garden harvest, more fun with friends & family, outdoor fires, smores’, fireworks, walks in the woods and 5K walk down road; albeit lonely without Scott who is not able to be here at this time.
Angus the eldest dog, is very weak as he is nearing his end of life. I have the two pooches with me pretty much 24/7. They just like to hang out.
Anonymous Quote- The soul needs gratitude, love, connection, community, reverence for life and an outlet to express itself creatively. When those needs are met, happiness follows.
September ended with sadness as we lost our friend Karen from post-op complications following her double lung transplant in July.
I am comforted by these words from my friend Pat,
“All of you strong and brave, amazing people who go through an organ transplant, and especially a double lung transplant; take a huge leap of faith and trust to have a chance at a new life “
and one of Karen’s favourite quotes,
“We must be willing to get rid of the life we planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us. – Joseph Campbell
We have her smile to keep with us always….
Breath easy my friend… it has been an honour.
I first of all want to dedicate this post to my friend, Karen, who just went through the operating room doors ( 3pm EST July 14) on her way to receive the Gift of Life. I have been part of her support team and the last two months I’ve been able to help her occasionally in the physio therapy room as she kept her body strong for surgery. She listed the week after I received my lungs. She is strong and has a wonderful care team that I am proud to be part of.
I now know what it must have felt like for all of you, family and friends! The waiting time while on “the List” and then the anticipation of whether the possible match was viable, and now the surgery, and then recovery.
I woke up at 3AM (prednisone can do that to you) checked my messages and saw that Karen got the call last night. She is now in the hands of the best of the best. She can rest while they do their work. I look forward to seeing her when I get back to Toronto and look forward to helping her in her post transplant journey.
Meanwhile, I’ve been out here at Games Lake in Sunburg, Minnesota for 3 weeks now. The last 2 1/2 weeks were filled with family & friends visiting, holiday celebrations and the annual Stroh family reunion at Uncle Ben and Aunt Kathy’s lake home. Being Duo Citizens, Scott and I had a lot of Independence celebrating to do and visiting with all the people who were part of my hands on team as well as those who were there in spirit and moral support. Things have now calmed down, and Scott is back in TO for a couple weeks. I look forward to more friends coming to visit and sharing with them what I could only observe a year ago.
This past year has given me life, there are several folks very close to me who had loss, who have given me strength even though they were in pain. The Stroh family, Caroline, Shannon, Ben, Kathy, John, Anne and the rest of the Stroh Clan –for Cousin Steve; Katie Malone and the Malone family— for Jim Malone; Mike Edwards, Sue, Courtney & Hailey— for their Aunt Borgie, Keith Cormier…The love of his life— for Eileen, the family of my donor— My donor.
I am reminded to slow it down a bit, as the healing process is still happening, I have a fungal infection that is being treated and now a bacterial infection that I will start to treat tomorrow. So needless to say, I’m learning what “immune-suppressed’ means. I find that when I go outside, the world is very full, but overwhelming, I think I can jump back in, but I get a heart flutter every time I try something I haven’t done for such a long time.
The world has opened up for me again, but it’s heavy, and I’m so used to being confined, that I’m a bit skittish . I’m not Atlas yet …in fact i can barely hold myself up in downward dog! But I none-the-less feel better and more confident each day. I’m Alive! and as Scott reminds me, ..since the moment we were told that lungs were available, every day, every hour has been better than the one before. Two years of relentless descent ended and the walk back up started. He is a wise man, that Mr. Dyer.
New life is everywhere, the prairie grasses and wildflowers are progressing, the female turkey and her chicks were outside my window this AM, the doe has brought her fawns close to the house. Both mothers are very aware of the ‘humans’, they know when you are looking at them…don’t even try opening a door or window for a snapshot…they are off and running.
I have posted a visual update, may have gone overboard, and I didn’t even get to every one. Lots of hugs, gratitude and thanks!!!
Went to Minnesota for a week to prep the Lake House for summer. Last year I mostly sat on the porch looking out and wondering if I’d ever be able to partake in all the fun activities that we had planned when we developed the property.
As my disease got worse, I sometimes wondered if I even cared to walk in the woods again, or sit on the dock and fish or climb into the boat or garden. Once I got there and took my first walk on the path through the woods and didn’t feel overwhelmed it occurred to me that I could do these things and really wanted to do them again New beginnings for all of us….
Last week May 6th – 10th I was at Toronto General 4 out of the 5 days doing out-patient tests for my 3 month assessment. Now the doctors will not need to see me until another 3 months have passed. I will continue to do blood work and breathing tests every two weeks to keep a watch on my blood levels so any signs of infection or rejection can be dealt with in an efficient manner. I’m doing great! That’s all anyone can say!
It was a long and exhausting week with fasting and poking and tubes down my nose and throat. In light of all that it was inspiring and humbling, because it was also anniversary week for other fellow transplant recipients who were there for their 3 month, 6 month, 9 month, 12 month and even 2 years! The happiest people on earth I swear!
Supervised Physio Therapy is over. I now will be continuing a regular exercise program on my own to continue to build my strength and keep my bones healthy. I will miss them, they were the nicest, firmest group of medical professionals. They had the perfect balance of gentle and firm that I needed to get back into living a physical life. As Carmen a fellow transplant recipient commented, “Your pushed out on a floating ice berg, Swim Nemo Swim!”
Over the past 12 week period I worked up to 4% grade at 3.5 mph on the treadmill. Which gave me the strength and stamina to do the stairs from the seats at a Jay’s Game! (with no recovery time needed) Prior to the transplant I could walk at 0% grade at .5 mph and still needed to recover after less than 20 minutes because I couldn’t pull in enough oxygen to keep the muscles pumping the oxygenated blood to my extremities.
My xrays continue to be one of my favorite tests to check, as they give me such a clear idea of what I had in my lung capacity in the past and what my new lungs now give me.
Comparing the pre-transplant lungs from January 2013 with my clinical check up in March and then this last check up at 13 weeks. The Dark space is oxygen, the white spidery lines on the first X-ray are the fibrosis and scarring. all clear now! See how you can see my stomach on the right side of slide 1? That is because the lung tissue has shrunken up and revealed it. It is covered in slide 2 and 3 as the lung is full size again and covers the stomach.
I went to Minnesota to surprise my family for my brother, George’s wedding. At breakfast I was surprised by my first caregiver, Kelly, who gathered a group of friends from Minneapolis to celebrate my 3 month anniversary. It was pure joy and surprise for everyone!!!
And the one surprise that I couldn’t resist was for my sister, Sue Ann, who spent several weeks caring for me and traveling through the darkest times with both Scott and me.